I thought about this post a lot and am a day late, but wanted to write it anyway.
I didn’t date a lot growing up or even as a young adult. I usually had one relationship and then stuck to it until I didn’t any longer.
I don’t have things that I would say in a public post, to someone specific. But if I had a chance to say anything to anyone I dated, it would be the following:
- I’m happy for the time we had together. It was worthwhile and I appreciate what you brought to my life and I don’t regret it.
- I wasn’t ready for you. I wasn’t an entire person when I was with you and even still struggle to be a good partner. I’m sure that means that I didn’t treat you as well as you deserved.
- I didn’t understand it until I was much older, but I had commitment issues even at a young age. That affected my ability to care about you.
- Life has turned out exactly how it was meant to and I’m happy for the life I have and hope that you are happy too.
Life is too short to live in regret. I don’t look back and wish I had done things differently, because this path has led me to my two wonderful boys and my husband of nearly thirteen years.
Could I have made better decisions along the way? Absolutely!
Did I love with all of my heart when I should have? No!
Have I learned how to be a better person along the way? I hope so.
I don’t lack closure in my life from lost love anymore. There have been opportunities lost and things that should or should not have been said. But, when I look into the big dark eyes of my beautiful boys, I know that the love I have now, is the love I was always meant to.